Suspicions confirmed. We're infertile.

"You guys definitely have infertility." The words hit me upside the head. In my heart, I already knew it was true, but some part of me was still holding out hope that our timing had just been off... off for over two years.

My initial reaction was to giggle when the doctor left the room. It was wildly unfitting and inappropriate. I kept looking at Kyle and repeating the words, "We're infertile... hahaha... We're barren... hahaha." It wasn't until we left the office that the full emotional weight of the diagnosis hit me.

I've seen other doctors in the past who suspected this, but no one ever confirmed it with tests and a proper thorough look at all of my symptoms. According to my physician, I'm a "classic case" of Poly-cystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS). Basically, my ovaries don't produce eggs as they should.

Now, it's not completely hopeless. There are medications and treatments we can try to increase our chances of conception. We're just very cautious about which treatments we are willing to use. Also, we're very confused about God's timing in all of this.

We still feel very strongly that we are both supposed to start graduate programs next year, but waiting to try and conceive is only going to hurt our chances. Older is not better when you're facing infertility. Do we keep trying and have babies while we're students? While not impossible, that would be very difficult. Do we put graduate school on hold until we've exhausted all our conception options? There's a chance that, even with treatment, it may never happen. We both want to adopt someday in the future, but we'd also like to try to make a baby.

We would highly covet your prayers through all of this. We know that Christ is sovereign over everything, even my malfunctioning ovaries.


Mama2SweetBabyJames said...

I am praying that God will reveal His plan to you in a clear and mighty way.

Miss you, btw.

cdt said...

Oh Chelsea, I am so sorry to hear this. I will be praying for you and for your husband in this time.


TBRNHM said...

Chelsea, I came home this evening and received an email from Morrisa and the link to you blog. My heart and thoughts go out to you - stay strong Sweetie. It's in God's hands.

Anonymous said...

Oh baby girl, my heart aches for you. I know that you and Kyle will be great parents someday. God has big plans for both of you. I will keep praying for you. Love, Mom

Launa said...

Chelsea and Kyle,

Don't give up. I had a cousin and his wife that it took until they were 39 years old but it finally happened that they got pregnant. So again, don't give up, it can happen.

Shannon Anderson said...

You guys will be GREAT parents someday, no matter what road you take to get there. We will be praying for you guys!

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